Dreaming of the future….

 

Having one of those weeks, the kind where your mind just won't stop. I should be devoting all my time to school but I can't seem to get my future out of my head. Ever since I was little, I dreamed of the typical, "white picket fence' kind of life. Being a wife and mother is all I dreamed off… I got one of those.

Words can't express the love I have for my daughter. I look at her everyday in amazement, always thinking. 'You are my daughter… How was I so blessed.' She was sent to me for a reason and sometimes I think she does more for me than I do for her. I feel like I have failed her. I can be the best mom in the world but I can't provide her with the family she deserves alone. This isn't that 'white picket fence' life that I always dreamed off. I would give anything in this world to make things right for Addi but there is only so much I can do.

Addi will always be number one and I will always put her first. No matter what comes our way, together, we will get through everything. I love you Addilyn, always and forever.

(Lyrics to Martina McBride's In My Daughter's Eyes)

For my Addi….

In my daughter's eyes, I am a hero.
I am strong and wise,
And I know no fear.
But the truth is plain to see:
She was sent to rescue me,
I see who I wanna be, in my daughter's eyes.

In my daughter's eyes, everyone is equal,
Darkness turns to light,
And the world is at peace.
This miracle God gave to me,
Gives me strength when I am weak.
I find reason to believe, in my daughter's eyes.

And when she wraps her hand around my finger,
Oh, it puts a smile in my heart.
Everything becomes a little clearer.
I realise what life is all about.
It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough;
It's givin' more when you feel like givin' up.
I've seen the light: it's in my daughter's eyes.


In my daughter's eyes, I can see the future.
A reflection of who I am,
And what will be.
And though she'll grow and, some day, leave:
Maybe raise a family,
When I'm gone, I hope you'll see,
How happy she made me,
For I'll be there, in my daughter's eyes.

 

Love, Your Mommy